BOULDERS 1

p. 139-151 (I am including two classes 2/15 and 2/22)

Removing boulders is like rolling away the stone that covers the crypt you are in.

You are not dead, just in the dark, and feeling trapped as if this is the way it is always going to be. Oh, yes, you read books, go to workshops, journal, mediate, do yoga, drink green tea, and you can see bit of light creeping in from from where the boulder is not quite flush with the ground, and somedays the light seems brighter than others, and somedays it’s pretty dim and somedays you wonder if it is there or was there at all.

It’s time to roll back the stone and sit in the light, because the Light is who you are.

(I realize we all have more than one boulder, more than one negative pattern that we have inherited or created, but I still think rolling back the stone and coming into the light is an apt metaphor.)

In the next few pages the guides seem to bounce back and forth describing the process as not being easy, it is a “substantial undertaking” and that it is not “abracadabra” yet at the same time telling us “We are going to blast it, as it were, and transmute it;” and “Now earlier in this chapter we said it’s not going to be abracadabra. A magic wand is not going to come down and tap on your boulder three times and get it out of the room. But what we are going to tell you is this. It does not need to be dismantled through an extended process that requires that you hold, hug, embrace, touch, examine, and self-identify as your boulder. ”

Do not be overly confused with the seeming contradictions here. There are simple yet powerful principles to be aware of: 1) old patterns of thought are being released; 2) what we call ‘time’ is a measurement of change in the material world, it has nothing to do with Spirit; 3) releasing an old pattern is about raising your frequency so that it no longer “sticks”—-willingness, intention, openness, awareness, being willing to experience that which you choose to let go of(and that might sometimes be difficult and painful). 

What we might begin to perceive as a negative pattern of thought, action or belief that no longer serves us has probably been around for quite some time—it has taken root, it has been reinforced by others and sometimes by our culture until it eventually becomes part of who we think we are. So to the ego, this kind of transformation/transmutation is like losing a part of yourself—and so old Mr. or Ms. Ego is going to hang on and fight for dear life. All of this is part of the dismantling of the boulder that we need to be aware of. (There might be anger, grieving, and a sense of loss as well as becoming comfortable with a “new identity” that we might need to contend with.)

Here is one the keys on p. 145: 

“Now we are not doing it. You are going to do it. And you are going to choose one thing today that you want to clear and clear once and for all in the Christ frequency that we claim as Word. You are going to do this with an intention to decide, once and for all, that it is your divine right to be without this thing that has created your pain, or that you give power to in such a way that it creates your pain.”

**********

“Now when you say, “I am Word through this thing that I identify as my pain,” you are bringing the Christ frequency to the energy that has been created in pain, and that begins to work on the pain.”

**********

Let me choose something I think most of us can identify with. It is a huge boulder of mine and I feel if I can release/dismantle this one, everything else will follow in a much smoother way.

OK here it is: “NOTENOUGHNESS.” There are many ways of describing this—unworthy, unloveable,… No matter how we might define this one it always ends up with me giving my power away somehow, becoming a victim to a set of thoughts ideas, fears, and circumstances.

So here is the boulder I wish to clear. I created it. I was not born with it, but through a number of life circumstances (embarrassing situations, “mistakes,” religious teachings, etc.) I started to take in the message—“I am not enough” and if, like me, you were surrounded by many others who either consciously or unconsciously carried the same message (of notenoughness), then you could never get the affirmation or support you needed to deny the implications. So we say to ourselves, “It’s probably true; I’m not enough.” And that thought becomes part of the definition of who we think we are, and we find ways to affirm that and make it into the truth as life goes on. We can even "protect"ourselves by creating an inner voice that reminds us of our notenoughness, so if someone else says something demeaning, we have already "beaten them to the punch." I think you can see how deeply we can be rooted in this kind of thinking, so much so that we think it is who we are.

On the outside we might appear to be serene and in charge, but my insides are holding on as tight as they can, attempting to ride out the storm of life.

Obviously this pattern and many like it are painful to carry around and to feel. 

Here is the first step provided for us:

“when you work on this, you have to work on it in several levels.

The first level is the creation of the pain:

“I choose this one thing now that I am going to undertake to clear from my consciousness once and for all and I am going to affirm this: In my intention to release this pattern of [fill in the blank], I am now willing to undertake the exercise that follows. In this work I will become actively engaged in the focus and responsibility of my own healing through my understanding that it is my will in alignment with the will of my Creator that supports me in choosing to release that which creates my pain.

“I do this now with the understanding that I will have to see the pain that I am releasing and I must address it clearly and with light. I do this now with the intention to remove myself from the role of victim that may perpetuate this pattern and give me solace on any level. I affirm that I am releasing any blame attached to the creation of this pattern that supports me in holding it to me to affirm my worthlessness, or my rage, or my entitlement to my anger.

“I choose today, once and for all, to decide I can change my life for good. I affirm this now in the highest frequency available to me at my present state of awareness of my Christed Self. I am Word through this intention. Word I am Word.”

More to come as we dismantle all those patterns that no longer serve.


“the next step of the clearing is to actually create a frequency of a high enough level that you can begin to clear the pattern in its cell memory of the body that you are in, which is also the attachment and the embellishment of it on many, many levels.”

We've explored this idea before in a general way, and here is tis very practical application.

If in your past state of mind you were velcro, then everything stuck to you and you probably did not know why. You were just always in victim consciousness.
Now, however through Awareness, willingness, and intention you are raising your vibrational level to be more like teflon. Less and less stuff sticks--because there is nothing for it to stick to.

We are no longer justifying any pattern of thought or behavior that would in anyway support the idea of separateness, and as we do that we become more and more clear, more and more truth, more and more love.

“The process of clearing a boulder is as follows:
“I am Word through this thing I see before me. Word I am Word. I am Word through this creation of pain that I have manifested for whatever reasons that is now obstructing my spiritual growth. I am now choosing to relinquish any and all attachments to this patterning of pain and all that it has created in my life. I am now willing to achieve a Christ consciousness that does not align to this pain but clears it from my cellular memory, from my auric field, from my awareness, from my physical reality in perfect ways.
“I am a Creator working in tandem with the Great Creator, I am a Light working with the Great Light, and I am a Christ working with the Great Christ in frequency. I am in alignment now with the vibration of the Word and I choose to release this boulder of pain in a perfect way that will result in my Creative Self working through this issue quickly, easily, and with consciousness. I am Word through this intention. Word I am Word.”

I would encourage all of us to repeat the affirmations/prayers in this chapter. This is not usually a one shot deal.

Peace.

LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING 4

(p. 133-138[end of chapter])

Here is the continuing mantra, that we can say out loud, quietly(when you are alone, driving in your car, dusting, etc.), or shout it from the rooftops-sky write it, paste it on your dashboard, your bathroom mirror, your shower, the back of your eyelids—BE CREATIVE.

“I am Word through my being.” Affirm this. “Word I am Word. I am Word through my vibration. Word I am Word. I am Word through my knowing of myself as Word.” WORD I AM WORD.

*****

“So get out of the way, allow yourself to be who you are in truth: “I am the Word, I am the Word, I am the Word. I am an aspect of the Creator made flesh, as are all men.” Period.”

When the guides reminded me to “Get out of the way” I again became aware that it is not the personal me that is evolving. It is not the personal me that is Word. It is the “Me” that is in my knowing of Oneness, no separation.

Stop affirming what you are not.  

I don’t think we just disappear when we realize this fully (but what do I know?). We might still be occupying these self-same vehicles we are in, but now with the deepest sense of love and reverence to all beings—BECAUSE WE ARE ALL ONE. 

*************

We did not get into the chapter called Boulders yet, but I would like to share a few thoughts.

This is not a chapter about what is wrong with you! It is not a chapter about what you need to change in order to be good or whole or enlightened.

It is about becoming aware those thoughts, ideas, patterns, etc. which we have created individually and culturally that no longer serve us and then being willing and open to letting them go. (or what ACIM refers to as “unlearning.”

Any form of judgment, guilt, recrimination, unforgiveness about ANYTHING (especially towards ourselves) lowers our vibrational level. All of the above were old methods we might have used to correct behavior in the past. They do not work, in fact, they so drain us of energy that the real work becomes even more difficult. 

So let us be aware of any negative thinking that might creep in with this next chapter, and drop it quickly.

As someone mentioned a couple of weeks ago, because we are always thinking, we are always creating. We are not always aware of what we are creating. We are not always aware that we are strengthening ideas and patterns of behavior that have been part of our lives for many years and which we not longer need.

As we become more aware, as we align our frequency more and more the the consciousness of Christ (through awareness, willingness and intention), the old stuff begins to drop off, there is nothing for it to stick to. That’s great news!

LOVE AND UNDERSTANDING 3

(this covers p. 126-133)

We have what we seek. It is there all the time, and if we give it time, it will make itself known to us. . . Not that we discover a new unity. We discover an older unity. We are already one. But we imagine that we are not. And what we have to recover is our original unity. What we have to be is what we are.     Thomas Merton

We are reminded here that it is the thoughts that I cling to, that I hold onto in my creation that also create the frequency that I live in.

There is a metaphysical maxim that states, “Energy follows thought” or here we could say “Frequency follow thought.” 

I’ve often wondered how or why my thoughts could affect my energy level. When I think in terms of thoughts and the frequency/energy they create, the idea made a lot more sense to me.

Negative thoughts are “heavy” they can literally weigh me down.  Healing, healthy, affirming, loving thoughts truly lighten the load.

And my thoughts, my frequency are not just men alone—the effect everyone and everything.

LUKE 9: “12Every thought that you think is heard literally around the world. 13The consciousness of man is shaken by your every thought. 14And so it is through thought that you teach, no matter what you are saying or doing, and no matter where you are.”

Excerpt From: Regina Dawn Akers. “The Holy Spirit's Interpretation of the New Testament (NTI).

But this is not about avoidance either. I know I have some mistaken notions about that. There have been times in my life when I was in a job I did not like or experiencing an unhealthy relationship, and I felt as if I was supposed to stay in it, until I had “fixed’ it or until I no long had any bad feelings about it. That kind if thinking was “mistaken metaphysics.” Of course, there will come a time when we will not be bothered by anything—but until we reach that level of consciousness, lets be kind, gentle, and loving to ourselves and not deliberately put ourselves into situations where we tend to become victimized. As we continue to realize who we truly are—the Christ Consciousness, we will be less and less weighed down by negative circumstances. 

So I have to focus on living life as lovingly as I can and grow in “wisdom, age, and grace.”

And the here is where discernment enters the process. I’m hoping I can explain this one simply. 

The book and practically all other spiritual literature, including the Bible uses the concept of judgment as an action or thought directed to another person. Since we never know what is going on in the heart of another, we are directed not to judge. (It is also pretty clear when we begin to judge another that we easily lose track of our own stuff.) My judgment can also be directed towards, books, movies, and life events in general when I start labeling things as being good or bad. Again, I think we can see how that kind of energy and thought simply adds to a sense of separation.

Discernment, which is also described as a gift of the Holy Spirit is an intelligent and intuitive action determining what is best for me—-not good or bad, but what works for me now. 

I might find that I am perceiving myself to be in a difficult place in my life where I feel as if my energy is low and my ability to cope is not very good, and so I might rightfully discern that I need to stay home and pray, mediate, watch TV, have a ham sandwich, rather than go to the party my in-laws are having where there is going to be a lot of drinking and loudness, etc.

That is perfectly valid. I am not judging anybody, I’m simply aware that this is not right for me at the time.

At some other time in my life, I might decide to go to a similar kind of party because there are some people there I would enjoy seeing or I want to support my spouse or some other valid reason. Again, I am not judging..

HERE IS THE BIG CHALLENGE. Discernment only works in the higher frequencies. I can use my ego mind to rationalize practically any behavior—-that is a lower frequency of thought, but a very seductive one. 

The results of discernment are not always fun or enjoyable. Sometimes my inner voice is leading me to thoughts and actions which are difficult and push me towards growth. So discernment is not necessarily about what make me feel good—it is about WHAT IS RIGHT FOR ME. And being able to know this—to be in MY KNOWING takes practice.

We are already aware of energy and frequency and how we respond to it, we just have not been aware of our knowing.

We know when something is bothering someone close to us; we know when we have entered into an angry situation even if it does not appear that way; we know when we have been “slimed’; we know when we are loved. Practice this knowing.

There is a continuing “infinity” loop we follow here. I raise my frequency through love, I see you more and more as the consciousness of Christ/Love, and therefore I see myself more and more as the consciousness of Christ/Love and as I see myself more and more as the consciousness of Christ/Love, I see you more and more as the consciousness ofChrist/Love and so on.

It’s not the old falsehood, “Well, if you don’t love yourself, you can’t love anybody else.”

Love and the expression and flow of Love is a matter of degree. You (and everyone else) is already “it” as you raise your frequency in consciousness, the flow from you and towards you increases until there is the awareness of Pure Love.—that’s it.

Peace, be well.

To all of you that were there last Sunday 3/1—thank you for letting me share my music. I would love to be able to do that again some time.